A Lust Thing | Mina West




Ever been stuck in a situation where you are battling between the lines of lust and love? When you start falling for someone, but worried they only care about one part of the “relationship”, knowing you deserve more but not knowing how to leave. A Lust Thing poem digs into that area, something that was written PRE Let’s Be Honest.


This poem was created after an open honest conversation with a friend many years ago. We was just having one of our little girlie conversations around guys and love and what does it really mean to be in love? And then the theme of lust started coming into play, why is it that us females (and some males included) allow ourselves to be subject of lust, knowing that we yearn for something deeper  - Love. The line repeated in this poem is “but this is just a lust thing, so I can’t win”. I have experience situations where I know what I’m doing is wrong, and inevitably I will be the one broken and upset, but I still entertained it.


This poem sub-title “Let’s Be Honest Prelude”, because I wanted whoever was listening to understand this poem reflects a past time in my life. My poetry is often a snapshot of my life/mind frame at that moment as I use poetry as a form of release. As I always say, I have a couple of pieces I have written over the years that I had never shared on the “online platform” and this is me sharing it now. Do I still battle with lust, of course I do - I’m HUMAN :), but listening back to this poem always helps me remember it’s love I truly desire.


Random fact, this poem was initially just called “Settle” - title recently changed because … I just thought it sounded better. But the underlying theme of it stays the same, don’t settle!


Production Info
Literally me and my friend filmed this together, one shot and a couple of practice rounds. I love the light in this shot, and yes we go in and out of focus a couple of times, and bits of it is not in sync with the words, I still love it :D.

Music backing track by my @bimas


Mina West x




Lyrics
I'll settle for lust because I can't feel Love
I'll settle because
his warm ripped body
pressed onto mine feels so fine
on my flesh
His sweat drips mixes with mine
from that heat of our chest
makes undressed the outfit
my skin feels at best in
as he carefully caressed
his body
in perfect time
continuously giving me more
never less
but you see it's my soul conscious that feels detest
Temptation is that test that I fail
as the sensation fools my head
into the land of fairy tell
I become weak and frail for this male
Start listening to all those sweet lines that he sells
get happy the off time that he bells
the many times hese made my cheek bones swirl
and how he just knows how to make girls toes curl
thinking ...
this could be more than just a fling
be one of those things in which my heart gets sucked in
instead of thrown aside and placed right down in the bin
because being a bit on the side
translation meaning
this is just a lust thing
so I can't win


I guess I will just go on and settle
cause I played helpless in his arms
Ignoring all alarms
made my head and heart unarmed
so they were easily defeated by his charm
as if to say he put a spell on me to make me charmed
but it was all my wrong doing
get easily sprung for a guy
glueing myself onto a guy
who was just screwing with my brain
for a screw to entertain
I'll satisfy his wet dreams
but my daydreams
fly high to the sky
because on earth
day dreams are meely bypass time
used to save myself from confronting that truth again
that
this is just a lust thing
so I can't win


But I'm the one that allowed myself to be taken
Mind, body, soul all shaken
so its promises to myself that i'm breaking
with my promiscuous endeavours
I endeavour in
I'm constantly measuring
How far I can actually go with him
until I do something stupid
like
actually fall in love with him
but you see
this is just a lust thing
I find him so untrusting
so being love must be too far to reach
I'd stretch myself so far
give all my time and energy
but loves to far to meet
from my past to others I should teach
but in present day all of that from my head just seems to leak
try take on the role of the independent woman
and dear myself to leave
retrieve any pride I have left
but this chemistry
leaves this sexual relief
that thieves every opportunity  
with him we revise each other's biology
so I stop thinking logically
because not only physically but mentally
I've become attached
it wasn't intentionally
but it was inevitably
as the attraction made its match
so Now
my minds strapped onto you
so I can't think before I do
and its my actions I can't bare
tear myself up every time I remember an intimate moment that we shared
every time I stopped and gave a dam
and cared
wish I could have the plan
to act like the man and leave you stranded then maybe I could understand
but all that attention I demanded
wasn't the position he had landed in


now here in reality
living life's brutality
telling myself again that
this is just a lust thing
I'll settle for lust because I can't feel Love
I'll settle because
his warm ripped body
pressed onto mine feels so fine
on my flesh
His sweat drips mixes with mine
from that heat of our chest
makes undressed the outfit
my skin feels at best in
as he carefully caressed
his body
in perfect time
continuously giving me more
never less
but you see it's my soul conscious that feels detest
Temptation is that test that I fail
as the sensation fools my head
into the land of fairy tell
I become weak and frail for this male
Start listening to all those sweet lines that he sells
get happy the off time that he bells
the many times hese made my cheek bones swirl
and how he just knows how to make girls toes curl
thinking ...
this could be more than just a fling
be one of those things in which my heart gets sucked in
instead of thrown aside and placed right down in the bin
because being a bit on the side
translation meaning
this is just a lust thing
so I can't win


I guess I will just go on and settle
cause I played helpless in his arms
Ignoring all alarms
made my head and heart unarmed
so they were easily defeated by his charm
as if to say he put a spell on me to make me charmed
but it was all my wrong doing
get easily sprung for a guy
glueing myself onto a guy
who was just screwing with my brain
for a screw to entertain
I'll satisfy his wet dreams
but my daydreams
fly high to the sky
because on earth
day dreams are meely bypass time
used to save myself from confronting that truth again
that
this is just a lust thing
so I can't win


But I'm the one that allowed myself to be taken
Mind, body, soul all shaken
so its promises to myself that i'm breaking
with my promiscuous endeavours
I endeavour in
I'm constantly measuring
How far I can actually go with him
until I do something stupid
like
actually fall in love with him
but you see
this is just a lust thing
I find him so untrusting
so being love must be too far to reach
I'd stretch myself so far
give all my time and energy
but loves to far to meet
from my past to others I should teach
but in present day all of that from my head just seems to leak
try take on the role of the independent woman
and dear myself to leave
retrieve any pride I have left
but this chemistry
leaves this sexual relief
that thieves every opportunity  
with him we revise each other's biology
so I stop thinking logically
because not only physically but mentally
I've become attached
it wasn't intentionally
but it was inevitably
as the attraction made its match
so Now
my minds strapped onto you
so I can't think before I do
and its my actions I can't bare
tear myself up every time I remember an intimate moment that we shared
every time I stopped and gave a dam
and cared
wish I could have the plan
to act like the man and leave you stranded then maybe I could understand
but all that attention I demanded
wasn't the position he had landed in


now here in reality
living life's brutality
telling myself again that
this is just a lust thing


so I can’t win

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