Let's Be Honest | Mina West


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My first blog post had to be my latest poem, it's the route to why I started this blog and why I've started this journey. I've stayed away from the 'spoken word scene' for a while now, letting pressures of work and general life balance get in the way, but if you are passionate about something then the only real thing stopping you is yourself. So I told myself to get out of my way :D

Let’s be honest is a recent poem I wrote. I don’t often get quiet time to sit and write poetry, so when the first couple of rhymes started to fill my head I couldn’t ignore it I had to write it down – stopped everything I was doing and just wrote. In that moment God’s presence was undeniable, I’ve had a writer’s block for a while and just thought I didn’t have it in me anymore, not realising I had been dealing with it all the wrong way, instead of trying to do it by my own will I should have been asking may your will be done Lord.

Let’s be honest is what I like to call a  ‘confessional’ poem, there are so many area’s in our individual lives that we have trouble with and can easily put a strain on our relationship with God, causing us to feel distant from him. When I started this poem trust me I didn’t know what direction it was going in, I didn’t plan for it to force me to address an area in my life that I had personal struggles with, an area a lot of people do. But God purposely spoke to me, to let me know that way of living is not my destiny, that he comes to redeem and save.   

The poem stays true to its title, God doesn't need us to sugar coat any situation to him, but to give him your all and let him be the change in you. “The reason why you keep falling into the trap of lust, because somewhere deep in your heart for me there is a lack of trust.” I’m in a new season of my life were I’m learning to trust God in all that I do, IN ALL THAT I DO! And in the beginning it might have felt like a challenge because I am a bit of a control freak, but the closer I get to him in all honesty it just becomes easier. The more I learn to put all my trust in him then the less I worry. Gods got this :D I know I’m not the only one feeling like this so if you ever want to share I’m one email away minawestpoetry@gmail.com

I also need to say a big thank you to @bimas for the instrumental, and a massive thank you to Clever Lens Media. Even though it was so cold, it was great working with @kelvins_journey, @tayoisrael who filmed and @jayfilms_ helping with the photos :D

 

Mina West x






Lyrics

It starts of as a gentle kiss
Then all of a sudden you’re doing more sins
Than you wish to list
Holy I try my best to remain
But now our bodies mixed up
In an ungodly strain
And my brains fighting with itself
Trying to reject his frame
But his touch makes me neglect
The holy thoughts I’ve trained
The sexual thoughts I’ve tamed
My heads going round in circles
Playing out like I’m insane
Do my best to contain my emotions
And refrain from his touch
That my flesh aims for so much
But my flesh is weak
and now I feel stained
Putting myself in a position, where
All i feel is shame
My head feels with pain
My heart takes the blame
Doing this with a guy and i don’t have his last name
Wondering why i keep playing this game
I Need to get out and walk down the righteous lane
Then i repeat
"Righteous lane"
And then think
Let’s be honest
Now that sounds lame

Because i ask myself
How good of a Christian girl am I
If I keep falling for the desire
Of a touch from a guy
So to my friends I lie
Because I’m ashamed
To admit I’m imprisoned by this
And in secret I cry
Constantly questioning myself
Thinking
Man why?

At home I pray
Partly because I feel guilty
For going astray
Knowing my Lord is a Lord of forgiveness
So I put my hands together and say
Lord forgive me
For I not know what I have done
And I hear his voice speak back to me
let’s be honest hun
And I’m thinking crap
He really wants to go there?
God see I don’t know if we should go there
Because then I’d have to admit
My body actually enjoyed
Going there
And he said
I created you woman
To know the pleasure of a man
So no need to hide
Because I understand
But understand This
You’re not going to be subject to the enemy’s demise
Filled up with wrongful soul ties, and lies
That that dumb devil tries
I’ve ordained u for greatness
Don’t get mixed up in the devils
Substitute for love which is faithless
A life filled with fake-ness
Your body is a temple
Yes this means its needs to be respected and kept
Not swept and swayed
Into different situations and occasions
Where I did not place u
Yes the enemy knows your scent
So he can trace you
He’s trying to make your flesh trump your spirit
And yh - he can tell the difference between you saying "I know the body of Christ"
To you actually living and believing in it
So in this spiritual warfare
I need u physically and emotionally fit
This means you cannot easily slip
Unto the wrong man’s lips

That’s why I put this condition in place
When u feel weak
Come I will strengthen you with my love and my grace
I wish for u to wait
And not give any man the keys to your gate
Until I instruct and state
That this man is your mate

I don’t do this to harm u
I do this to arm u from being in prison
To alarm u from the sinful decisions
I do this for you
Time to shift your hearts desires unto something new
And not feel heavy burden by the laws of what not to do
But to be under the covenant of my mercy and grace
In happiness, joyous and strong
Because u know what’s true
I do this because I have so much love for u
I want more for u
I want it all for u
You couldn’t even imagine what I’ve got stored for u
But first i need u to be sure
And want more of me
Seek me first whole heartedly
So when i finally bring your husband its clear to see
And there won’t be any confusion
On who this man could be
Are u finally understanding me?

Let’s be honest
The reason why u keep falling into that trap of lust
Because somewhere deep in your heart for me there’s a lack of trust

"Well God spoke to me"

And then in that moment
I finally sussed it out
You know when you finally clock something
And you just want to scream and shout
God gave me this revelation
No I’m not under condemnation
He gave me this conviction
To break the chains of sins restrictions
I'm free
See on the cross
Christ paid the cost
No need to feel guilty,
I know I am forgiven
But I first need to repent
And make a choice on the life I’m living
Is it a life of sinning?
Or a life of winning
And the only way I can achieve that
Is if i come with an open heart that’s willing
To depart from this worlds ways
I said depart from this worlds ways
And start hearing what God says
To embark on a life with him
Abide in him
Constantly ride with him
So Lord God I choose to do that
for the rest of my days.

Event | Stand Up with Steph | 2nd May 2015




Saw the first event advertised on Poetry In London facebook page, and it was amazing :D! So I had to attend the second event. Great vibe, and opportunity to hear some new talent x
If you would like to perform contact stephsoulreal@outlook.com

Event Details
Address: St. James Street, Walthamstow, E17 7PE
Date: Saturday 2nd May
Time: 7pm - 11pm